Is it just me?

Lately, I've had a string of bad luck. Is it me and only me? Or are some of you feeling my pain. My bad luck streak began after September 11th. I'm not saying that is the cause of my curse, but I just thought it was a weird coincidence. Over the course of this past year, I've had many bad experiences. I screwed up my academics(that may also have to do with drinking and the party scene), lost some of my best friends, had a life threatining car accident, and recently broke up with a girl that I believed to be extremely special to me(she still is), and once again I am now shattering my academic record. Those are the first ones that come to my mind. The only thing I had in common with everyone of my friends is the relationship problems. Even my dear sister has recently lost her beloved, while my precious cousins and losing possible spouses left and right. Now I'm a little unsure about this thing called love and if it even exists. I've lost a lot of faith in it recently. Funny how the people who don't believe in love are the ones who haven't found it. I'm one of those people right now.

World War 3 lurks

I recently read an article about George W.'s plan of attack if Saddam didn't comply with U.N. standards. I was quite surprised by what Bush had to say about the "evil-doers". I was more surprised when I found out the launch date of an attack. Apparently, GWB has his heart set on attacking Iraq by February. Not just any day in this particular month, but on my birthday to be exact. I didn't know how to react knowing that there is a possibility that on my birthday thousands of people could die. My birthday may be the date WW3 began. I'm at a loss for words. I'm also nervous about a possible draft, though I can't be my friends might be. I'm the only son of my family and I think my father is eligible for the draft. I'm so conflicted. Either I can stay here and let my father go to his death or I can go with him and leave my mother and sister without a man in the household. I'm hoping that I'm wrong. How old can you be before the draft doesn't apply? Or does it apply to any male 16 and older? Please e-mail me if you know the answer. Thank you very much. I must get back to my school work now. I know some of you may wonder who I am. Here's a quick one. I'm 16, I'm a junior at Franklin High, I live in the city of Portland, and I'm a Vietnamese kid without anything else to do so I'm typing this.

11/19/02


When i heard that you are in the hospital

Tears on my eyes never lies,
The fire inside my heart will never die.
The fear inside of my heart is getting stronger.
lallallala...............i miss you..........

These were the words of my girlfriend. Sorry let me rephrase that.: EX-girlfriend. It's all over people. After our weekend standoff, we ended it Sunday night. Something she did wrong and I feel the bad side. Unbelievable! I can't believe those words drew me in before. I just couldn't say no. I've never had the heart to. See we had split up before and I got into a car accident. On my supposed death bed, she confessed words that brought tears to my eyes. How stupid of me to believe it. Now all I'm wondering if she actually meant them. Now all I can do is put it behind me. That's what I get for taking high school relationships too seriously. How nieve. Not much to say as I usually would but I don't have the will. Sorry. Until next time my fans.

Couldn't Handle The Pressure

Yes. I'm here to admit it. I cracked. I couldn't out last her. This morning images of her kept flying through my mind and I couldn't take it anymore! I picked up the phone and called my girlfriend. She won, but she doesn't know yet. All I got was the busy signal all day. I'm glad and sad at the same time. I'm glad she doesn't know that I didn't have the strength to stay apart longer than she could. I'm sad because I miss her very much. As of tonight, it will be a full 72 hours since we've had our biggest fight ever. I'm in quite the dilemma. I don't know if I should call again or wait for her to call and act as if I had won the battle. On one hand, I can finally reconcile with her and put the past behind us. On the other hand, I can wait for a ring from her and salvage what dignity I have left. *sigh* Decisions, decisions. All I can do now is wait.